Tonight was good I am sad to see it go, but glad it came.
If only you weren’t leaving and we had more time maybe I could’ve been less of a coward and had some courage but I guess I will still remain a coward waiting on you..
Somewhere between happy, a total fucking wreck
Feet sometimes on solid ground, sometimes at the edge
Spend your waking moments, simply counting time
Give up on your hopes and dreams, give up on your…
Life for you, has been less than kind
So take a number, stand in line
We’ve all been sorry, we’ve all been hurt
But how we survive, is what makes us who we are
An obvious disinterest, we barely managed smile
I’ll take my little Greenland, a status quo exile
I shoot my obligations, I miss all those headlines
I started quitting early, you’re fucking up my life
All smiles and sunshine, a perfect world on a perfect day
Everything always works out, I have never felt so fucking great
All smiles and sunshine, a perfect world on a perfect day
Everything always works out, I have never felt so great
(Life isn’t like this)
Life isn’t like this (Life isn’t like this)
Are we fudging on an answer, fucking up my…
(Who we are)
It’s what makes us who we are
(Who we are)
Makes us who we are
(Who we are)
It’s what makes us who we are
(Who we are)
So there are many nights where I sit here at my desk while my roommate and his girlfriend are sitting in the couch talking laughing and enjoying each others company. I sit here smile and laugh but inside its killing me. Yes I am happy for them that they have each other, but I cant help but think about my life and how I have yet to have a serious relationship. Yes, I do want a relationship but, I guess I have a view to as I don’t want a relationship just for the sake of the relationship. The person I am going to date is who I might marry I don’t want to go and get some girl when I have string feelings toward another girl. I guess I should give some background here, I have had strong feelings towards my friend for about a two years. I have not told her because the friendship with her means to much to me, and I don’t want to loose that. Yet, now we are both sophomores in college and yet I still think about her daily. Now being friends we have hang out all the time with others and through that I have found out that she is talking to a guy at her own college. I find myself at a crossroads unsure of which road i should take.
I don’t know if anyone will ever read this but it doesn’t matter it helps clear my head when I get it out and into words…
Thanks for hearing the venting of a voice in this mist of problems.
